Living in the future

I have been living in the future for a long time now. What I mean to say is that I have been living with my dreams for a long time. You know... everything like, learning to play guitar, learning how to swim, having a pet dog etc. Every time I come close to doing any of this, I just will postpone it for the future, so I have been living with the hope that one day in future, I will be able to do all this and more.

I have tried many times to make this work but I have never been able to make this future of mine to become the present but I will never give up, one day i will have a pet dog no matter what( maybe after I become a software engineer and have our own house etc etc ), one day I will learn to play a guitar and some day I will do all those crazy things that I have always wanted to do.

I think the reason why my future can't become my present is that I am making the wrong choices, taking decisions which only take me far off from my future. If I want all those things to become my present then I need to make time for them and that means prioritizing things. So, you see we came to the first point again and when we prioritize we start thinking of future ( of yours and your family ), your work, your life in the long run and have to give up some of the recreation and stuff in life and this means that all those dreams of mine will be dreams for ever.

The biggest question mark facing everyone is "life", so lets see where it will take me and how things will go for me.

Me, My life and My brother

I am blogging after a long time. This time i want to talk about the greatest gift my life has given me - my brother. Before I tell you more about my brother, let me tell you something about my life and how it got influenced and continues to be influenced by him.

I chose PCMB in my PUC because my brother told me to do so.
I joined Shastry Tuitions because of my brother.
I covered java and cleared SCJP before my engineering because my brother told me to do so.
I chose computer science branch because of my brother.
I joined RV college because of my brother.
I went to fests, participated in programming contests because he told me to do so.

Not only this, every decision in my life, no matter how small or how big, has been taken after consulting with my brother. Me trying for MS, joining Microsoft, giving interview for Google; everything is because of my brother.

He has been there whenever i need him no matter how busy, how difficult it is for him. You see... every step of my life has my brother guiding me through it and I can't even imagine what would happen if he were not there for me.

When it was decided that he has to go to US, I felt that i would lose him but I have never felt him away from me even for one day. We only talk over phone now but I can still sense the same care, same anxiety, same love whenever I hear his voice over phone.

I don't pray to God for anything for me because he has given me everything in the form of my brother and my parents. This post is never ending and the above list will keep growing but I lack words to describe his love.

Will write more when I feel like writing. That's all for now folks...